Happy April

What a wonderful sun shinny spring day! At least at this point it is. I’m sitting at work, the sun is shining into the office making it feel warm and inviting for a change. It is calling for cloud and rain, but the temperature is supposed to get up to about 7 today. When I arrived this morning, it was still rather frosty but my eyes travelled to the garden at the center and low and behold the green tulip leaves have sprouted and pushed their way up passed all the dead leaves and brown mulch. I saw 2 robins hopping about the parking lot indicating MY first official feeling of Spring. A new season brings new beginnings in every avenue of life.

I’m not sure what I would classify the past week. It’s really been a roller coaster of emotions which will be one for the books. I did spend a bit of time by myself and took a very long walk on Saturday. I wasn’t sure where I was going, but with my mini mp3 player tucked into my coat pocket and my ear phones securely in my ears I began to just walk. I think deep in my mind I knew where I would end up and sure enough I did. I had a nice chat with someone that I haven’t spoken to in a very long time which made me feel better and then off I went again making my way back home. I was able to clear my mind and emotions and as I stepped back into the house I felt good. I even did some major house cleaning which was sorely needed. Walking really is good for blowing out some cobwebs and clearing your mind.

I am kind of torn about my up and coming trip to the north this summer. I have been checking out the different forms of transportation and the costs. I have totally stricken off taking the Grey Hound since it would take forever to get there, plus the fact of sitting all cramped up for that long is not an enjoyable thought. My friend mentioned taking a small plane ride from Toronto and after checking it out online it’s a very good idea since the cost is well within my budget and the airport in the north is a short drive to my friends place. The other idea I am tossing around is going by train. Now the cost is a bit more and the travel time also is a major downfall, but damn it sounds like fun!

I have been paying close attention to my surroundings and I can say that my eyes have been opened in more ways than one. If I’m to be honest with myself I guess I believed only what I wanted to believe and even though time after time actions spoke louder than words, I refused to see what was before me. I did try to not take things personally but well after so many times of being smacked with the invisible anvil it’s rather hard not to take things personally. Sometimes “pulling up the big girl panties” and “sucking it up princess” does not hold true. There are times when you just have to go with your gut instinct and move to more comfortable and rewarding phase in your life.

"Every man has three characters—that which he exhibits, that which he has, and that which he thinks he has." (Alphonse Karr)

Time Keeps On Slipping……….Into The Future

Wow, where do I begin. Well lately I have felt such a huge sense of relief lifted off of me and I have only myself to thank. It took a long time but I finally faced some things that I thought was there but when push came to shove those things were never really there to begin with if that makes any sense? Anyway I am now back into top form and even had a few very unexpected compliments, which by the way makes one feel even better.

I have begun to make plans for things I need and want to do this summer. The top of the list is a trip north. Over the last year or so I have reconnected with a good friend and have spent many hours over the internet chatting, laughing and talking about old times as well as opening up and shedding a few tears along the way. Yes we have certainly had our trials and tribulations and a few wrenches were thrown into the mix causing the friendship to stall and at times even come to a complete halt. Gossip and lies were the main culprits but we managed to work things out, talk about things that were said via gossip and lies as well as the feelings we each had during the past few years. We both admitted being hurt but have moved passed all the lies, betrayals and gossip. I do believe that if a friendship is real it can survive even the rockiest roads down the path of life. Anyway, I really am looking forward to taking the bus north, spending a week with my good friend sitting in the calm of leisure with nothing and no one to worry about but myself.

Work seems to be on an even keel lately and that’s a good thing. I did have to have a very silent chuckle the other day when I had to go for a small training session at the centre. The training went fine and everyone understood what was taught. Although I’m sure (and I’ll only speak for myself in this case) that even though I understood everything, when it comes to actually applying the knowledge that I was taught to a task I’ll not remember a damn thing. The chuckle came after when we were all still in the office and we were chatting with the Supervisor. There is an alcohol rental coming up in the near future and one staff member started to kind of take over by stating point blank who would be working and who would have a chance to work during the next event. I never said a word since I backed away from supervising alcohol events period. Well to make a long story short, one staff member had spoken up saying in a very polite and dignified way that she would appreciate the hours. The “self appointed” staff member told her that no it would be her way and that she would work the next event. I was watching the Supervisors face carefully and noticed an eyebrow rise as this statement. I had to turn away to hide a smile as the Supervisor looked at this “self appointed” staff member and told her point blank that no, she wanted the staff member that needed the hours to work. It really was quite humorous watching this person very quickly back peddle and immediately agree with the Supervisor. Now THAT my dear readers was a classic case of “brown nosing” of the highest degree.

Begin challenging your own assumptions. Your assumptions are your windows on the world. Scrub them off every once in awhile, or the light won't come in.
~ Alan Alda.

Saying Good-bye will never be an easy thing to do

"Until one has loved an animal, a part of one's soul remains unawakened. "

Rest in peace Abby girl.

psst...did you know................

I had a very nice chat with someone and boy did I have a few laughs. Some of the conversation was based on personal things such as, work and family but there was a bit of conversation that in a round about way was directed towards gossip of others and who to trust and not trust. Now I am not going to be hypocritical at this point in my life so I will be honest and say that I myself have partaken in the gossip mill on more than one occasion. I had a good chuckle when I heard some of the gossip that had been said about me and the other person busted out laughing when I told them the gossip I had been given about them. It was too funny as the quips of gossip that we compared were identical only about each other. It really makes me wonder how old the gossip mongers are in their mentality since it was more like teenage gossip then the adult kind. I can actually see where certain things in my life were not based on being able to trust someone or something but I have come a long way in a short amount of time and I can now proudly sing “I’m a big girl now!”

I feel good!!!

Yesterday was one of my Saturdays to work and it sure was busy. It was quiet, but busy for sure. With one child’s birthday party in the gym and another child’s birthday party upstairs, I was kept on my toes. The parents of both parties were very nice and cleaned up their festivities leaving things as though nothing had taken place. I was taken by surprise when one of the guests from the upstairs party popped in to say hello. It turns out she had attended the girls program that used to run at the centre. Now this is going way back when my oldest ran that particular program. It sure does feel good when the kids that came to the centre more than 13 yrs ago can remember who you are. There was only one snag as my day started. I arrived to find a message blinking on the phone. It turns out that the IT Service noticed the Network alarm was blinking for the centres location. I was asked to check the connection and to let them know if the network was in fact down, and it was. When I returned their call they told me they would be down shortly. Well I got to work at 12:15, called them back at 12:25 and at 3:30 they finally arrived. It seems there might have been a power outage over night and the modem needed to be reset. Well at least I learned how to reset this particular modem and if it happens again I will know what to do.

If the full moon looked unusually large last night, it was not your imagination. It was the biggest and brightest full moon to be seen in 15 years. The unusual happening of last night was that the perigee (the point in the orbit of the moon when it comes nearest to earth) also coincided with a full moon, which made it appear 14 per cent bigger and some 30 per cent brighter than most full moons this year. The next closest encounter with a full moon this large will not be until November 14, 2016. I was actually surprised my cheap camera was able to half ass catch last lights moon in all its glory.

Super Moon of 2011



Today has started out on a good note. It’s the first day of spring. A coffee arrived as usual along with a friendly good morning and smile and I am in a fantastic mood. It’s amazing how your body reacts when your mind finally comes to terms with certain things.
I hope everyone has an amazing and good week ahead!

Happy Spring Time Everyone!!!

So life DOES go on

Through humour, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it.
(Bill Cosby)

I came across this quote as I was checking out a blog that I sometimes follow. It really struck home for me since I tend to hide my pain in humour through my writings. Recently I have had to deal with a few blows from life and it was up to me how to handle it. I have let go of a few things that meant a lot to me in order to cope with certain situations. I usually end up talking things over with others that I know but this time I chose to stand on my own and handle the situation in the way it best suits me. It was something that was never real when I look back at certain things. Yes it’s my perception, but isn’t that what life is about? Living life through ones own eyes and not through the eyes of another? It took a few gallons of tears, but now I can smile and laugh about the situation and how it came about. Am I better for having this person enter my life? Yes, I know I am. Can I be friendly (without the snippets of anger showing) when I have contact? I can honestly say yes. Time does heal old wounds and add in a bit of humour and laughter I can handle it without the hurt showing.

So life DOES go on……………………

Gravity dictates that what is heavy in weight when lifted is even heavier in weight when it falls. Just ask my big toe. A big toe may not participate in as many activities as other parts of ones body, and in fact it maybe one of the laziest parts on ones body, but for me, the big toe seems to take all the punishment of my actions. Yes, I did it once again. I broke my toe. Usually it’s my baby toe and usually it’s due to my clumsiness by whacking my toe on a chair leg or table leg that’s when I begin to spew words that would put a sailor to shame. I can’t help but think that had I not had to take the damn thing down to the basement myself I would not have had to find out the painful laws of gravity. Now I am of an age where I have heard almost all imaginative and descriptive words that has graced the English language as well as most slang words. Well holy bejesus; some of the words that spewed passed my lips as the heavy 30lbs of weight crashed down on my big toe would make even the most vocal of English slang users cringe. To say it hurt was putting it mildly. I love the saying “I am woman-hear me roar” and well, I put a whole new spin on that quote! I managed to hobble back up the stairs with cuss words echoing through the house. Even Bentley decided to keep away and found a small hiding spot as I cursed the male species and their lack of use on earth.
Anyway, my toe is broke and has turned the wonderful colour of green, blue, red and purple. I’m reduced to wearing those god awful duck shoes with thick warm socks to work. Oh what a fashion statement I am making!

So life DOES go on……………………………….