Wednesday, April 27, 2011

The Letter S

Today's blog is brought to you by the letter S

S is for Sisters

She is your mirror, shinning back at you with a world of possibilities. She is your witness, who see’s you at your worst and best, and loves you anyway. She is your partner in crime, your midnight companion, someone who knows when you are smiling, even in the dark. She is your teacher, your defence attorney, your personal press agent, even your shrink. Some days she’s the reason you wish you were an only child. Barbra Alpert

There are many ways to be and have a sister. It doesn’t necessarily mean that you have to be related by blood.

You've been there through out all that I've done,
And our friendship is more than true.
We are two, but we stand as one,
And I don't know what I would do without you.

You're always there when I need you,
And I can't believe all the things that we've been through.
No one ever gets me the way you do,
And it's all because you're just you.

You are my best friend, and I want to thank you,
Because you've always brought out the best in me.
You always find a way to make me smile when i'm felling blue
And when I’m sad you always cheer me up and make me happy.

I don't think you will ever really understand
How you've touched my heart, and made me who I am.
I don't think you could ever know just how special you are to me,
Because you're a better friend then anyone could ever be.

I hope you will forever be my best sister and my friend,
Because I know we will be best sisters till the end.
I will never forget you even if we are in the biggest fight,
I know will get through it, because we are too tight, and it just wouldn't feel right.

You'll always be in my heart,
No matter how bad things get.
And we will never have to grow apart,
Because we will look back at those times and hope to never forget.

So this one's for me and you
To always help remember,
That miracles do come true,
Because you're my friend forever.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

The Letter R

Todays blog is brought to you by the letter R

R is for the 3 R's

Reputation -A single lie destroys a whole reputation of integrity.
Baltasar Gracian

Respect - That you may retain your self-respect, it is better to displease the people by doing what you know is right, than to temporarily please them by doing what you know is wrong.
William J. H. Boetcker

- Friendship consists in forgetting; what one gives, and remembering what one receives”
Alexandre Dumas Père quotes

Monday, April 25, 2011

The Letter Q

Today's blog is brought to you by the letter Q

Q is for Questions

Apple or orange juice?
Orange juice. I’ve handed in enough urine samples to have turned me off of apple juice

Morning or night person?
Night person....that’s when I get into most of my troubles.

Sweet or salty foods?
I’m sweet enough already so I’d have to say salty.

Whos sexier…ninjas or pirates?
Pirates, damn they have nice backsides! Oh yes and they are rugged and dangerous…adding that spice to life.

Favourite childhood television show?
I Dream of Jeannie…and Bewitched….they do magic!

If you could have a super power, what would it be?

If you could sleep with a super hero who would it be?

What is your first thought upon waking in the morning?
who can I piss off first today.

What do you usually think about before going to sleep?
if he snores any louder I’ll be going to prison!

3 best personality traits
1) I’ll cry if you cry
2) I say what I feel
3) I’m a good listener

3 worst personality traits
1)I can be a bitch
2)I can be a snotty bitch
3) did I mention I can be a bitch?

First thing you notice with the opposite sex.
their butt…errrr I mean their eyes…yes their eyes.

1 personality trait that you dislike in other people.

1 thing you miss about being a kid
Not having a care in the world.

1 thing you love about being an adult.
I can cuss with the best of them and not have my mouth washed out with soap.

If you had to change your name, what would you name yourself?
Pandora…1) because it has 3 syllables
2) well if you really know me you wouldn’t have to ask!

Do you believe in the afterlife?
no, at least I hope there isn’t, cause by the time I’m ready to leave THIS world, I’ll be needing a vacation!

Sunday, April 24, 2011

The Letter P

Today's blog is brought to you by the letter P

P is for Pickle

The birth of the pickle

Once a cucumber has reached the perfect ripeness, it is harvested with love and care. One can either prepare the cucumber as a delicious raw vegetable or depending on what type of pickle you wish the cucumber to become you can bathe it in brine juice. Now I love cucumbers period, but I am also a pickle fiend. I think nothing about grabbing a jar of dill pickles and poking a fork inside the open jar to retrieve a nice thick crisp cold dill pickle. Oh to hear the crunch and feel the tart juices tantalize my taste buds. Now that’s an amazing taste.

During my vacation to Myrtle Beach a few years ago, I was introduced to a couple different things regarding a 2 of my favourite things. The first was the way they prepared their hamburgers. Now I’m not one that likes onions on my hamburger, but was very surprised when my hamburger was served and there were onions on them. The cool thing was that the onions were deep fried with batter, aka – onion rings. I absolutely loved it. Now the second thing that I was introduced to was deep fried pickles. That’s right, deep fried pickles. If you haven’t heard of them, they do exist. If you have heard of them but have never tried them, go for it. They are so good. OMG…I could have a platter of them for dinner and I’d be more than satisfied!

Fried pickles
Fried pickles are a snack food found commonly in the American South. It is made by deep-frying a sliced battered dill pickle.Fried Dill Pickles were popularized by Bernell "Fatman" Austin in 1963 at the Duchess Drive In located in Atkins, Arkansas. The Fatman's Recipe is only known to his family and used once each year at the annual Picklefest in Atkins, held each May. The recipe for Fried pickle at Wikibooks is a general one. Fried pickles are served at food festivals and menus of individual and chain restaurants nationwide. They can be eaten as an appetizer or as an accompaniment to other dishes. Fried pickles are frequently served with a ranch or other creamy sauce for dipping.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

The Letter O

Todays blog is brought to you by the letter O

O is for O.M.G

Nobody says you must laugh, but a sense of humour can help you overlook the unattractive, tolerate the unpleasant, cope with the unexpected, and smile through the day” (Ann Landers)

In life everyone one has those OMG moments. Those moments that seem to come out of no where, leaving you speechless. I’ve had my fair share of those moments believe me. There were many times I was put on the spot in all stages of my life. When I was younger I called them “holy shit, you’re kidding me!” moments. Then they became “what the f**k just happened?” moments. Now they are called “OMG” or, depending on the moment “OMFG” moments.

Not to long ago I was placed in a situation where I wanted to scream out “OMG”, but work ethics and dignity over-ruled. It’s rather hard to keep ones wits about them when they are in a room with 3 others being told your behaviour needs to be put in check. With as much grace and dignity as I could gather I swallowed the urge to scream out those much needed alphabetical letters and took it all on the chin. Oh it hurt and it hurt a lot, but over time and some much needed compassion from others I am now able to laugh it off and even made a few jokes about it. That’s not to say I’ll ever forget, but using humour does help to make it through the days. So next time you find yourself in an “OMG” situation, trying thinking about something humorous as you swallow back those letters. It does work!

Friday, April 22, 2011

The Letter N

Todays blog is brought to you by the letter N

N is for...well N

The letter N is the first letter of a very important word in the English language: No. Many people claim to have trouble saying "no," while many kids complain that their parents say "no" too much. Regardless of your personal feelings on the word "no" it is clear that it depends on the N for its first letter. The famous kids chant Na-na-na-na-na-naaaaa, used to taunt unwitting victims on the playground for generations, also depends on the letter N. Well, perhaps it wouldn't be so bad to lose that N chant.... BUT plenty of other neat words need N in order to exist as well. Nobody could write about a new experience without the letter N, for example, nor could they tell someone necessary news about their needs. Nope, its clear that we can't say No when asked if N is an important letter in English!

Fun facts about the Letter N

N is one of the six letters provided to the final contestants in the Wheel of Fortune game show (R, S, T, L, N and E).
Next only to T, N is the second most commonly used consonant in the English language
The fastest growing nail is on the middle

Thursday, April 21, 2011

The Letter M

Today's blog is brought to you by the letter M

M is for Menopause

Need I say more??????

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

The Letter L

Todays blog is brought to you by the letter L

L is for Looking back

Since I’ve hit that major milestone in years I’ve found myself looking back to see where I’ve been. Some of those roads were so rocky that a bulldozer would have a hard time going down them, those are stories that I’ll leave for another time.

I can still see him standing proud and full of pride. He was a lot older than I was and certainly had some issues that plagued him where ever he went, but I didn’t mind. Where ever we went we had fun. He had experienced many things before he came into my life and me, being 14 yrs old counted on him to be there for me. Maybe I’ll write more about this wonderful side kick of mine and all the adventures we had one day. But for now, I’ll just look back on all the wonderful memories we shared.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

The Letter K

Today's blog is brought to you by the letter K

K is for Karma

People pay for what they do, and still more, for what they have allowed themselves to become. And they pay for it simply: by the lives they lead. ~Edith Wharton

Many people use the term without knowing the meaning of karma. They usually use 'karma' to explain bad things that have happened to them.
According to Wikipedia, the definition of karma is the concept of "action" or "deed". So it refers to positive and negative experiences. The meaning of karma simply refers to the process of cause and effect. Action causes reaction. Whatever you do, something will happen. Karma, the gift that keeps on giving…think before you act…before you speak…and remember, what you do unto others…you do unto yourself.

Monday, April 18, 2011

The Letter J

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J is for Just this and that

Not much has happened in my corner of the world. My Mother-in-law seems to be holding her own and that’s pissing her off. She has told us all she is waiting for that final bell to toll and it’s not happening for her. I have now refused to go there and listen to her while her kids sit with sad helpless looks on their faces. This just is not right.

Saturday my oldest daughter and her boyfriend returned from Las Vegas. They came by for dinner and we had a nice chat. During their time there, they took a side trip to the Grand Canyon. The pictures they took were absolutely amazing. This is one place I have marked down on my “bucket list” to visit, and after seeing the pictures and hearing them talk about the total serenity of it, I am more determined to go.

Last night I was going through some of my dads old pictures and came across one that really tugged at my heart strings. It really shows what sibling bonding was all about. It’s a picture of my Uncle Bryan sitting in a wagon as a child, holding a picture of my father when he was over seas. Even if the little boy was a stranger holding a picture of a man I didn’t know, to me it’s a very heartfelt picture.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

The Letter I

Today’s blog is brought to you by the letter I

I is for Individuality

All greatness of character is dependent on individuality. The person who has no other existence than that, which he partakes in common with all around him, will never have any other than an existence of mediocrity. (Quote by - James F. Cooper)

I must admit that there for a while I misplaced my own individuality in order to be accepted by a few. It’s a lesson in life that I think we all learn and the final lessons can be very hurtful. I became someone I really didn’t like and all for the sake of feeling as though I belonged. The hurt I had to feel opened my eyes to the fact that all that were in this so call “select” group lacked their own character and individuality since they all spoke as one when in a group yet cussed and complained in private because they did not like what was said or done. But enough of that I am now back to being me. I say what I feel and I keep company with those who are not afraid to be themselves and who also accept others for having their own individuality.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

The Letter H

Today’s blog is brought to you by the letter H

H is for Horoscope

Sagittarius – November 22- December 21

Saturday April 16 2011

A message from a friend could make your day, Sagittarius. The good news may involve travel, money, or a love relationship. There could also be an intellectual matter that you're anxious to look into, perhaps for the purpose of writing or teaching. A journey, possibly related to education, could be in the offing, perhaps with friends. A busy and stimulating day is definitely ahead.

I guess I’ll see if today’s horoscope is true or not

Friday, April 15, 2011

The Letter G

Todays blog is brought to you by the letter G

G is for Goobers and Good and Plenty I really had to search my mind to come up with something for the letter G, and low and behold, somewhere tucked high up on the shelf of my memory a light flickered. Sometimes during the summer months a very,very, verrrrrrrrrrry long time ago if us kids had been good, our parents would treat us to a night at the Drive-In on a Friday or Saturday night. Our area had 2 Drive-Ins. The Breezes Drive-In, which was in town and The Sun Set Drive Drive-In on the outskirts of town. I seem to recall going to The Sun Set Drive-In more than The Breezes, but both brings back some really happy memories. I can remember having our dinner, clearing the table and doing the dishes. After everything was done and dad had read the paper we’d begin to pack the old red station wagon with a thick double sized piece of foam, blankets and pillows. Excitement rang through the bedrooms as us 4 kids changed into our pajamas and loaded into the car. We’d arrive at about 7:30 pm and we’d have to wait until the gates opened at 8. When the gates opened and each car was allowed in, dad would drive slowly around looking for a parking spot that had a working speaker between the playground and the concession booth. Since the movie didn’t start until dusk we were allowed to go to the playground for a little while. When it began to grow darker, dad would sound the horn 2 times telling us it was time to go back to the car. Once at the car dad would reach into his pocket and we’d get all excited as we heard the change jingling. I could hardly wait to get my quarter so I could go buy a box of my favourite candy. A box of Goobers. My sisters and brother always bought a box of Good and Plenty’s, but not me. I hated the taste of black liquorice and even the candy coating that covered the small pieces of liquorice tasted horrible. Me, I loved Goobers. The chocolate covered peanuts were my all time favourite. Money was tight back then and even though the popcorn, french fries, hamburgers and hotdogs smelled so good we made do with our candy without complaining……to much. We’d wait for each other to do the washroom thing and then all head back to the car. (I can still hear the crunching of the stones under our feet as we walked). Dad had taken that time to get the speaker adjusted onto the window while mom made up the foam mattress in the back. My youngest sister would sit up front with mom and dad while we sat in the back seat. At a certain time cars would start to honk there horns and then within minutes the movie would appear on the gigantic outdoor screen. About half way through the first movie (there was always a double feature) my youngest sister would begin to fall asleep. She’d climb over the seats and curl up under a blanket on the mattress. I’d usually be able to watch the first movie in its entirety, but by the time the Intermission was over I’d be drifting off. Ahhh…childhood memories!!!!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

The Letter F

Today’s blog is brought to you by the letter F

F is for Friendship

When two people share a strong bond of mutual understanding, respect and love it lays the foundation stone for an everlasting friendship. This bond just gets stronger with time; the trust between the two people grows and so does the attachment. Whether you are in a strawberry patch picking strawberries with a friend, talking on the phone, taking a long bike ride or sharing coffee at Tim Hortons, it begins to be the so call cement of the love of a friend. Every relationship whether it is a friendship or something deeper will occassionally run ashore. It's learning how to except and forgive one another that makes or breaks a friendship.

Searching for the meaning of friendship has always been a burning question. But as soon as we meet our friends all these questions get answered automatically. The answer to what is the meaning of friendship lies within our hearts, because true friendship can only be felt, and not expressed.

Something so pure and essential is not always visible to the eye, but is felt by the heart.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

The Letter E

Today's blog is brought to you by the letter E

E is for Exercise

Exercise isn’t for everyone and it does take a lot of commitment for someone to do a diligent workout everyday. I do take part in the Zumba classes at the centre (although I have missed 3 classes due to my broken toe). Last week I did take the class but my toe was screaming “what the hell are you doing to me” with every step I took. Since I do Zumba only once every week, I needed an exercise plan that could fit into my life style. I found the perfect program that works for me. Who knows it could work for you too! You’ll never know until you give it a try.

Day 1

Beat around the bush several times
Jump to conclusions all the time
Climb the walls
Wade through the daily paper from start to finish

Day 2

Drag my high heels constantly
Push my luck all the time
Make mountains out of mole hills
Hit the nail on the head regularly

Day 3

Skate around the issues for awhile
Bend over backwards
Jump onto the latest bandwagon
Pat myself on the back just for the fun of it

Day 4

Run around in circles all day long
Blow my own horn constantly
Pull out all the stops for just a minute
Add oodles of fuel to the fire

Day 5

Open a can of worms or Pandora's box just to see what's inside
Put my foot in my mouth regularly
Start the ball rolling often
Go fly a kite in the morning and go over the edge at night

Day 6

Pick up the pieces (before Humpty Dumpty screws it up with 'crazy glue')
Raise the roof as much as I want
Lift a pint when the spirit moves me
Skip the laundry, or for that matter the washing up

Day 7

Give myself a great big hug
Blow someone a kiss
Smile for no reason
Cuddle anyone who needs it
What an amazing workout!

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

The Letter D

Todays blog is brought to you be the letter D

D is for Dance

It took me a long time before I reached this point in my life, but I finally arrived. I had to burn some bridges, take off the so called “Rose coloured glasses” and accept within myself what needed to be discarded. I had to hurt, feel hurt and then move on. I found that I don’t need the approval of anyone and I don’t need to do,say or act a different way to make people notice me. I have decided that if people can’t handle me at my worst…then they certainly don’t deserve me at my best!

Life's a Dance!!!

When I was fourteen I was falling fast
For a blue-eyed girl in my homeroom class
Tryin' to find the courage to ask her out
Was like trying to get oil from a water spout
What she would've said, I can't say
I never did ask, she move away
I learned something from my blue-eyed girl
Sink or swim, you ought to give it a whirl

Life's a dance you learn as you go
Sometimes you lead, sometimes you follow
Don't worry 'bout what you don't know
Life's a dance you learn as you go

The longer I live, the more I believe
You do have to give if you want to receive
There's a time to listen and a time to talk
And you might have to crawl
Even after you walk
I've had sure things blow up in my face
Seen the longshot win the race
Been knocked down by the slamming door
Picked myself up and came back for more

Life's a dance you learn as you go
Sometimes you lead, sometime you follow
Don't worry 'bout what you don't know
Life's a dance you learn as you go

Monday, April 11, 2011

The Letter C

Today’s blog is brought to you by the letter C

C is for Coffee

Caffeine is my shepherd; I shall not doze.
It maketh me to wake in green pastures:
It leadeth me beyond the sleeping masses.
It restoreth my buzz:
It leadeth me in the paths of consciousness for its name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of addiction,
I will fear no Equal:
For thou art with me; thy cream and thy sugar they comfort me.
Thou preparest a carafe before me in the presence of my sleep filled eyes:
Thou anointest my day with pep; my mug runneth over.
Surely richness and taste shall follow me all the days of my life:
And I will dwell in the House of Coffee forever.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

The Letter B

Todays blog is brought to you by the Letter B

B is for Bentley

Bentley – Born May 15th 2009.
Adopted – July 4th 2009
Went to my new home on July 7th 2009.

My name is Bentley and I’m a Golden Retriever. I was just a wee baby when I joined my new mommy and her family. I really can’t remember too much during the first few weeks of settling into my new home. My adopted mommy said I cried a lot, but as the days wore on I began to fit in.

From the different pictures I have seen I grew really fast. I stopped chewing on toes and ankles and began to have a liking for furniture. This didn’t make my mommy to happy and I got scolded on more than a few occasions. I tried to be a good boy and most times I left the furniture alone turning my attention to the bathroom. It’s really interesting in this room and I have found something that really intrigues me. The white stuff that comes off the wall when pulled is really a cool toy. I’m not sure why, but I like the taste of it too. I have been told it’s too expensive to play with and mommy has scolded me for that too. I don’t really understand why when they just let it hang there and then throw some away down that huge water bowl that makes things disappear. I might just as well have some fun with it without mommy knowing. There are other furry creatures that I can play with in the house, but when I catch them and start to play with them they get mean and hiss and growl at me. They have really sharp claws too. It makes me cry when they hit my nose. Their claws seem to bite into my nose and they won’t let go until mommy comes running. Then they look all upset and stuff and I’m the one that gets into trouble. I don’t think that’s very fair!

On my first birthday mommy took me swimming in the river. I had to have a rope tied onto my collar so mommy could rescue me if the water tried to swallow me up or worse yet have the water carry me away because this water moves fast. At first I was scared cause I had never been swimming before. But as soon as mommy threw that stick into the water it was like I was an Olympic swimmer. I swam for a long time and when mommy said it was time to go I was really upset but she promised to take me swimming again. I can’t wait!

The man that lives in the house with mommy gets mad at me a lot. He says I have A.D.H.D. I don’t know what that means but mommy tells me not to worry about it. She tells the man that I am just a very busy boy with lots of energy. The man does play with me, but because I am stronger and faster than him he gets mad and stops playing with me. I try to jump at him to coax him to play, but that just gets him madder at me. When he gets really mad I go and sit beside mommy. That makes me feel better. Sometimes I get mad at the man too and I will do things just to bug him. Mommy scolds me for that too, but if you look carefully, mommy tries to hide a smile. Well it’s kinda cloudy out today and I am bored, so mommy is going to let me outside to play. I love being outside and my favourite thing to do is dig really big holes all over the yard. That really makes the man mad, but that’s another story for another time!

Saturday, April 9, 2011

The Letter A

The other day I was reading a blog and noticed something pretty cool. On this blog was sort of an advertisement to sign up for a A-Z blogging. I checked this out and it seemed pretty cool. Since the beginning of the month has now passed by 9 days I’m going to try this type of blogging on my own. I’ll start today and end in 26 days. I’ll not worry about whether or not I have begun on the first day of a month. Some of the blogs will be about me and some will just be silly off my head kinds of topics. Either way, It’ll be fun for me and yes, I guess I’m stealing someone else’s idea, but what the hey….sue me!........

Todays Blog is brought to you by the Letter A

A is for Alligator,

One of my favourite vacations was when I went to South Carolina with my cousin and oldest daughter 3 years ago. It was a fabulous vacation giving me 10 days of stress free time. I was so excited about going since I had only read about places like Myrtle Beach. One of the main things I had been warned about (and rightly so) were that the Alligators are as common as seeing deer in the wetlands and forest areas of our city. I was absolutely awestruck the first day we arrived. The city it’s self was amazing. The temperature was 85 degrees and we could actually smell the ocean as we drove through the city towards the condo.

The day after we arrived I went out with the camera, like all tourists, and ran across this sign on the bank of the small pond on the condo’s property. It made me laugh since signs like this are hard to comprehend.

That is until I turned and focused my eyes on the pond. Well hells bells I almost jumped out of my own skin when I saw this Alligator. Once I got over the shock I couldn’t help but stare in amazement at this creature that was coasting through the water. Each time a sound was made this Alligator slowly submerged downward and then after a few moments he surfaced again. It certainly was a treat watching him.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Nothing to do but wait....

Lots of people limit their possibilities by giving up easily. Never tell yourself this is too much for me. It's no use. I can't go on. If you do you're licked, and by your own thinking too. Norman Vincent Peale

Well, once again my little corner of the world is preparing them selves to accept yet another passing. This time it is my Mother-in law. For months now she has been sliding downward. It actually began a few years back when my husbands’ family had to face the quick and very unexpected death of a sister and daughter. Then just a few short years later another child/sibling became ill and passed away with cancer. It was evident that my Mother-in-law never really got over the grief of losing 2 of her children. She has now lost all will to live and has been placed on home “palliative care” notice. She has had every test imaginable and there is nothing wrong with her except her inner will to keep going.
Those who know my history with this family will understand my thoughts. Those who do not, will be scritchen their heads in puzzlement. I was never accepted by my In-Laws and over the years I have often joked and called them “The Out-Laws”. There have been many pissy cat fights between my Mother-in-Law and myself and on a few rare occasions some vocal and very verbal screaming matches. As I grew and matured I learned how to turn the other cheek and bite back my words and thoughts. …..until now.

I can not imagine losing a child and then a few years later losing another. The hurt must be horrendous at the very least. I do have a problem when there are other children involved. Yes all the kids are grown adults and they too lost two siblings and their hurt is just as staggering although in a different way. What I can not seem to grasp is the willingness to not want go on and to envelope ones self in the love of the other children. Young children or adult children it makes no difference. They are still your children. The family has no choice now but to sit and watch their mother literally die before their eyes. As I said before, there is no disease running rampant through her body. Just the lack of will to continue her life. I will be honest, it does make me angry to see the hurt in her families eyes as they stand vigil by her bedside trying to come to terms with this senseless act. The palliative home-care nurse has indicated that this could end shortly or it could last for weeks or even months. I am trying hard to hide my anger about this but each day it just continues to grow. I can do nothing but shake my head…but am I shaking my head in sadness?...or in anger? I really don’t know.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Happy April

What a wonderful sun shinny spring day! At least at this point it is. I’m sitting at work, the sun is shining into the office making it feel warm and inviting for a change. It is calling for cloud and rain, but the temperature is supposed to get up to about 7 today. When I arrived this morning, it was still rather frosty but my eyes travelled to the garden at the center and low and behold the green tulip leaves have sprouted and pushed their way up passed all the dead leaves and brown mulch. I saw 2 robins hopping about the parking lot indicating MY first official feeling of Spring. A new season brings new beginnings in every avenue of life.

I’m not sure what I would classify the past week. It’s really been a roller coaster of emotions which will be one for the books. I did spend a bit of time by myself and took a very long walk on Saturday. I wasn’t sure where I was going, but with my mini mp3 player tucked into my coat pocket and my ear phones securely in my ears I began to just walk. I think deep in my mind I knew where I would end up and sure enough I did. I had a nice chat with someone that I haven’t spoken to in a very long time which made me feel better and then off I went again making my way back home. I was able to clear my mind and emotions and as I stepped back into the house I felt good. I even did some major house cleaning which was sorely needed. Walking really is good for blowing out some cobwebs and clearing your mind.

I am kind of torn about my up and coming trip to the north this summer. I have been checking out the different forms of transportation and the costs. I have totally stricken off taking the Grey Hound since it would take forever to get there, plus the fact of sitting all cramped up for that long is not an enjoyable thought. My friend mentioned taking a small plane ride from Toronto and after checking it out online it’s a very good idea since the cost is well within my budget and the airport in the north is a short drive to my friends place. The other idea I am tossing around is going by train. Now the cost is a bit more and the travel time also is a major downfall, but damn it sounds like fun!

I have been paying close attention to my surroundings and I can say that my eyes have been opened in more ways than one. If I’m to be honest with myself I guess I believed only what I wanted to believe and even though time after time actions spoke louder than words, I refused to see what was before me. I did try to not take things personally but well after so many times of being smacked with the invisible anvil it’s rather hard not to take things personally. Sometimes “pulling up the big girl panties” and “sucking it up princess” does not hold true. There are times when you just have to go with your gut instinct and move to more comfortable and rewarding phase in your life.

"Every man has three characters—that which he exhibits, that which he has, and that which he thinks he has." (Alphonse Karr)